Complications

Last night I had severe abdominal pain.  It was the worst pain that I've ever experienced.  I also bled some and threw up a couple of times.  My husband took me to the ER.  They did tests on my blood and urine, and couldn't figure out what was wrong with me.  We're booked in with the specialist tommorow to get an ultrasound and hopefully some answers.

Today has been absolute hell.  I'm probably losing my baby, and there's nothing that I can do about it.  I feel so helpless.

Week Five

Today I'm exactly five weeks pregnant!  It's amazing how quickly my little baby is developing.  According to a book I looked at, he or she is already 10,000 times bigger than at conception!  Imagine if we kept growing at that rate.  Already his little heart and nervous system and other organs are forming.  Amazing.


To read an article on the 5th week of pregnancy, click here.

Tired

If I didn't already know that I was pregnant, I definitely would have known after this week.  I have been absolutely exhausted.  One day I found it hard to keep my eyes open, and fell asleep three times during the day!  Rather than getting up with my little girls in the morning, I've been getting up, leaving them in front of the TV, and going back to bed, or else my husband gets up with them. 

When I was pregnant with Princess and Angel I was really tired in the first trimester as well, so I know that I'll get more energy again soon.  Right now, though, I'm feeling pretty tired.  It's hardly surprising, actually, when you think about how much is going on right now with the pregnancy.

Big sister to be

My toddler is obsessed with cars.  Angel's the most beautiful little girl you've ever seen, and she loves anything on wheels.  In the garden, she loves to play with her little tikes car.  Her favorite toys are cars and trains.  When other kids her age get scared from noisy big vehicles driving by, she jumps with excitement and points, saying "Wow!  Big Car!" 

Having found out that she's going to be a big sister, my husband and I have thought a lot about how this will affect her and how she'll react.  The day that I took the pregnancy test, my husband was very excited to pull her up into his lap and tell her that she's going to be a big sister.

Her response?

"No Daddy.  I car."

He tried again, and she just kept insisting that she's going to grow up into a car.

HURRAY!!!

Baby Blogs

I read an e-article today on the best pregnancy blogs.  (Click here to read the article.)  I enjoyed looking at other people's blogs about pregnancy, and particularly liked His Boys Can Swim.  It did seem, though, like as I was looking at pregnancy blogs I found quite a few that dealt with very serious problems during the pregnancy, and some of the stories ended either in miscarriage or the baby dying soon after birth.  It was really upsetting for me to read about.  I appreciate and respect all of the parents who shared their experience, but as somebody planning a kid, it made me feel anxious.  It's so easy to worry about everything that could happen...

Looking at other peoples' blogs also made me realize how far I have to go with this little blogging adventure of mine.  I was often impressed and humbled.

Wondering

I'm in that phase again where the most fertile time of my cycle is ending, but it's too soon to know if anything's happened.  It's the wondering stage.  Am I pregnant already?  Could I still get pregnant this month?   If not, how long will we have to keep trying?  I feel like I do when I look up at the stars on a summer night and make a wish and wonder about people all over the world (and through time) looking up at the same stars.  Wondering if this month my wish will happen, even if I wouldn't know it for a few more weeks.   This is the time of waiting and wondering.