Wednesday, 28 July 2010


Last night I had severe abdominal pain.  It was the worst pain that I've ever experienced.  I also bled some and threw up a couple of times.  My husband took me to the ER.  They did tests on my blood and urine, and couldn't figure out what was wrong with me.  We're booked in with the specialist tommorow to get an ultrasound and hopefully some answers.

Today has been absolute hell.  I'm probably losing my baby, and there's nothing that I can do about it.  I feel so helpless.

Sunday, 25 July 2010

Week Five

Today I'm exactly five weeks pregnant!  It's amazing how quickly my little baby is developing.  According to a book I looked at, he or she is already 10,000 times bigger than at conception!  Imagine if we kept growing at that rate.  Already his little heart and nervous system and other organs are forming.  Amazing.

To read an article on the 5th week of pregnancy, click here.

Friday, 23 July 2010


If I didn't already know that I was pregnant, I definitely would have known after this week.  I have been absolutely exhausted.  One day I found it hard to keep my eyes open, and fell asleep three times during the day!  Rather than getting up with my little girls in the morning, I've been getting up, leaving them in front of the TV, and going back to bed, or else my husband gets up with them. 

When I was pregnant with Princess and Angel I was really tired in the first trimester as well, so I know that I'll get more energy again soon.  Right now, though, I'm feeling pretty tired.  It's hardly surprising, actually, when you think about how much is going on right now with the pregnancy.

Tuesday, 20 July 2010

Big sister to be

My toddler is obsessed with cars.  Angel's the most beautiful little girl you've ever seen, and she loves anything on wheels.  In the garden, she loves to play with her little tikes car.  Her favorite toys are cars and trains.  When other kids her age get scared from noisy big vehicles driving by, she jumps with excitement and points, saying "Wow!  Big Car!" 

Having found out that she's going to be a big sister, my husband and I have thought a lot about how this will affect her and how she'll react.  The day that I took the pregnancy test, my husband was very excited to pull her up into his lap and tell her that she's going to be a big sister.

Her response?

"No Daddy.  I car."

He tried again, and she just kept insisting that she's going to grow up into a car.

Wednesday, 14 July 2010

Baby Blogs

I read an e-article today on the best pregnancy blogs.  (Click here to read the article.)  I enjoyed looking at other people's blogs about pregnancy, and particularly liked His Boys Can Swim.  It did seem, though, like as I was looking at pregnancy blogs I found quite a few that dealt with very serious problems during the pregnancy, and some of the stories ended either in miscarriage or the baby dying soon after birth.  It was really upsetting for me to read about.  I appreciate and respect all of the parents who shared their experience, but as somebody planning a kid, it made me feel anxious.  It's so easy to worry about everything that could happen...

Looking at other peoples' blogs also made me realize how far I have to go with this little blogging adventure of mine.  I was often impressed and humbled.

Thursday, 8 July 2010


I'm in that phase again where the most fertile time of my cycle is ending, but it's too soon to know if anything's happened.  It's the wondering stage.  Am I pregnant already?  Could I still get pregnant this month?   If not, how long will we have to keep trying?  I feel like I do when I look up at the stars on a summer night and make a wish and wonder about people all over the world (and through time) looking up at the same stars.  Wondering if this month my wish will happen, even if I wouldn't know it for a few more weeks.   This is the time of waiting and wondering.

Monday, 5 July 2010

"Straight Away"

One of my oldest daughter's teachers is pregnant.  She's about to go on maternity leave, and so my daughter was talking about making a card for her.  After discussing her teacher having a baby, Princess looked at me and said, "Daddy needs to put a baby in your tummy straight away so that we can have another baby in the family very soon."

Sunday, 4 July 2010

4th of July BBQ

I've had a great Independence Day.  We went to a barbecue with some friends. The weather was perfect, and I love the nice smoky smell of barbecue.  It seems like we've been so busy lately and just working non-stop, so it was a welcome break to just lounge about for an afternoon eating and chatting with friends.  Our kids had a great time with all of the other children there running around, playing games, and stealing sausages as quickly as they came off the BBQ.   Happy 4th of July everybody.

Some of our friends were there with their toddler and newborn baby.  She just slept peacefully in her dad's lap, and then woke up and wriggled happily on the picnic blanket.  Everyone there couldn't help but coo over her.  My husband looked at her and noted how beautiful and tiny she was.  "I want one", he summed up.   Nice to know that I'm not the only one who's broody.

Now I just need some fireworks to finish off a great 4th.

(Fireworks image borrowed from Blah-g.  Thanks.  My fireworks definitely won't be this impressive.)

Saturday, 3 July 2010

Happy Anniversary

Last night we celebrated our anniversary.  We got a sitter for the night and enjoyed a romantic evening out together.  We went out for dinner and then revisted some of our favourite spots from when we were dating and engaged.  It was a really romantic evening; it was perfect for our anniversary to take a trip down memory lane, so to speak.  I am an incredibly lucky woman to have my husband.  I know it sounds really cheesy, and I try not to get all gushy, but it's true.  Revisiting former haunts (and make-out spots) of ours was fantastic, but it made me realize how much more I love him now.  If you read this, happy anniversary hun.

Our fantastic date also made me more confident about our decision to try for a baby right now.  We may not be perfect parents, but this baby will definitely be born to a loving family.  My last period started about two weeks ago, so who knows?  Maybe we'll get a special anniversary present this year :)